人是奇怪的动物。。

世界上真的有好多好多东西哦。

电话啦，电脑啦，日常用品，桌子椅子，梳子，钱包，食物等等等等。。这些东西真的有很多不同款式。你要大的小的，久的新的等等都有。可是对我来说，最多不一样，最多不同的东西应该是。。。

人类。。

有些人失败了很多次才懂得珍惜。
有些人明明就是要无缘无故对你冷淡，就算曾经是很好很好的朋友。
有些人自以为是，什么都觉得自己说的最对。
有些人有权利对任何人发脾气，有些人却不能。
有些人死都不肯说对不起，有些人就算没有做错也还在说对不起。
有些人很爱美，有些人觉得丑也无所谓。
有些人不愿回头，多年的友情也能就这样放下，有些人却傻到认为朋友是一辈子的事。
有些人赞同你说的，有些人不赞同你说的。。就算在他们面前说了同样的话。
有些人宁愿听别人的看法也不愿意听听当事人所说的真正感受。
有些人就是会在你旁边支持你，鼓励你，有些人就是要在你最难过时泼你冷水。
有些人能给于其他人真心的祝福，有些人却因为得不到而说了些让人听了都难过的事。
有些人说到做到，有些人却说到做不到，还变本加厉的做这些“做不到”的事。
有些人愿意为对方着想，不轻易拿别人的弱点来攻击，有些人却每天都在骂人，专拿别人的弱点来攻击对方。
有些人好言相劝，有些人能接受，有些人却死都觉得自己是对的，还拼命反驳。
有些人爱的方式不一样，因人而异。看不到不代表没有，看到了也不一定就有。
有些人把爱放在嘴边，有些人却放在心里。
有些人能轻易地说出永远。有些人却觉得活在当下比较好。
有些人愿意花一辈子的时间来讨她最爱的人的欢心。。
好多好多。。

我，真的不太会珍惜身边的美好事物。有人说我说得很对。我也承认。说我不懂人情世故也好，说我不懂爱也好。我都承认。难道说错了做错了就不能回头吗？现实是这么残酷吗？错。。现实归现实，但，不管再怎么现实，这世界还是有希望的。我们不是也做到了吗？

我和宝贝一样，滥用了老天给的幸福。走了那么多，到最后还是在一起。每走过一些障碍，我们就越珍惜对方。就算旁边有个白痴说了那么多让人心痛的话，我们的心还是靠在一起的不是吗？

"世界千姿百态，人类喜怒无常，好坏参半，看得开，走向前才是王道.."

此刻的我好想宝贝哦。。

Today i am lazy and the weather is so hot..

keep sweating.. shit.. sticky... but lazy to bath. haa.. 1st day in uni, i can feel the pressure from my friend who named saiksu, elaine and keanyung. 3of them are the power student in our engineering.. 1st day of the class, they already started study. What the hell.. I feel so lazy. haha.. It makes me feel like studying now. While typing my blog, actually i also open my student file. haha.. Now only i realise i so kiasu.. ish... Affected by those guys.. Anyway, Study is the main thing to do now.. so.. not consider kiasu la. haha..

Miss my baobei much.. as usual.. haha.. Hope we can watch movie together agin but.. we are so far away from each other. and also hope that you can do well in your assignment lo.. I really wish you can do it. Don't get panic so easily.. you can do it de.. trust yourself and also trust my judgement ok? I love you always. No matter what am i doing, i always love you.. haha. Hope what i say can built your zi xin xing. haha.. muakz.. miss you much

I slept the most today since holiday..

Don't know why today i slept so much. haha.. From 3am to 11.30am. After that from 4pm to 7pm. Maybe to someone else is jus a small case but to me, i haven't been sleeping for this long since holiday started. haha.. What did i do during holiday?? i don't know. Forget already. .

Still miss my baobei very much wor. haha.. See baobei always bear everything down. I really feel sad. What can i do for you? I can only listen to you and give no comment about what you are doing ba.. You have to decide what to do for yourself. But remember to be happy k? If you can't feel happy, I don't think i will be happy too.. Muakz..

I will always be ready to listen to you de.. I love you baobei.. I wish i can give you what you want, what you expect.. HugX2.. take care lo..

In KL now...

So boring.. besides playing game, i can only chat with baobei le. Baobei don't worry ya. I always miss you. hehe.. Classes starting soon.. Very sien.. Miss those days that i can rest at home and do nothing. haha. But i also feel happy that i goin to do something. At least i am not wasting my time. Baobei a.. No matter what i am doing and how i feel, i still miss you badly. Really hope i can study singapore. haa.. So that i can accompany you.. But think deeper, I aslo glad that i study at KL. at least i can spend some time with my dad. haa. agree??

Baobei got to wait few months to see me, should be very lonely right? Hope baobei can still live happily without me. And also wait for me to come back. haha..

Read his blog. Find it funny but also find it touching.. Don't know why.. Baobei feel free also can read his blog. haha.. ( seems bad to read people's blog ) Anyway, i wish everyone beside you can stay healthy and happy always.. And i also wish that everyone in my heart can stay healthy and happy always.. Everyone must add oil ya.. No matter me and you are good friend or not, must always take care lo.

I love baobei. Miss you so much.. Must take care ya. Cause you are the one in my heart.. Muakz..

Time flies...

Later will go back to KL lo. I thought that i won't miss you that much as i already preapred myself to go back to KL. but when i woke up, my heart very sakit lo.. I can't bear to leave you here but.. What can i do? I have to study ma.. So... Let's work hard together lo baobei. Don't let the feeling affect us. Must move forward right?

I love baobei much much.. No one can break this words except me or you.. No third party in. haha. Bler... Muakz.. Must take care lo. I will always miss baobei de.. really... Jiayou lo.. Hope to see you soon again.. really hope so...

last day is not the last day

Blur liao.. Last day not last day. haa. Before that said that it will be the last time for me to meet baobei in this holiday.. but.. haha.. Later we will meet again. haha.. Happy that you will stil wish to come back to look for me even tomorrow you still have to work. Glad that baobei love me that much. I really appreciate it..

So sad that i am going back.. But if i don't go back, what can i do?haa.. Work hard for our future lo baobei.. Hope tonight will be a very nice night. Happy night. haha.. I love you baobei. Thanks for everything. Really...

Must always be careful ya.. i will worry you alot. Jiayou.. see you tonight..

Back from Singapore...

So tired.. I go there come back go there come back.. so many times this week.. haha..

Hope baobei is fine lo.. I know you will feel very sad about what had happen but.. life stil has to goes on right?

"世界千姿百态，人类喜怒无常，好坏参半，看得开，走向前才是王道.."

you say you like these sentence which written by me. haha. I feel so proud lo.. haha..

Today is the last day to meet you le. I mean in my this holiday.. I felt quite sad lo. Hai.. How much i wish i can stand beside baobei, hug you tight tight and kiss you gentlely. haha.. But.. I really got to go back to study le. Must prepare for the future right? Muakz.. I really love baobei o. Hope baobei can really feel it..

Must take care of yourself o. Move forward ya.. I will be there waiting for you..

Going back to KL on friday (22th feb)

3 and half months has gone. I going back to KL to continue my "journey". I don't like it. I wish I can stay for another few more days to accompany my baobei o...But.. school is reopening. I have to go back.

Will my baobei miss me alot? i think yes ba. I saw you cry this morning. It makes me feel like crying too. I really don't wish to leave baobei alone here.. especially these days.. Bad things happen.. How can i let my baobei face it alone? But baobei, must be brave ya. I know you can overcome it de.. I will give all my support to baobei de k?

Tomorrow wil go sg again. Just to see you.. Hope we will have a sweet lunch tomorrow la. haha... I love baobei.. ALWAYS... hugxn..........

16th day.. I am the most happiness guy in the world...

HAHA.. quite weird to say myself that i am the most happiness man in the world. haha.. What i want has come true and i will never leave baobei anymore.. Trust me k? Both of us muz really work hard this time. No matter what happen to each other, we will never give up k? Muakz..

No more counting days lo. Today is the last day, but i will try to update this blog everyday. So that baobei can knows wat are your baobei doing. haha.. I really miss u alot.. Hai.. going back KL le.. I know baobei will miss me. Everything has to start over again. Baobei has to overcome every single stage yourself. I really hope i can stand beside you and give you anything you want. But..

Baobei muz always take care ya. I really love you, baobei.. Must not leave me ya.. Let time prove that my love to you is real la.. muakz.. see you later.. i love you...

14th day.. Am i dreaming???

Am i dreaming? or...??? I hope no.. I hope all these are real...

From now onwards, my heart really goes to you le. I don't want it back anymore. I want to give it to you as your present. I want you to keep it very nicely and sayang it. haha. I don't want to give you too many promises.. I will show that what i have said to baobei will come true in front of you.. I will try my best not to disappoint baobei le. can't bear to do so......

( TOO excited le, i can't describe everything in my heart.. Let me cool down 1st....HAHA )

13th day.. ???

As i mentioned, today is a very happy day. Very sweet. Love this feeling very much. Hope time can stop at that time, at that moment. But reality is.. things pass very soon. Fetch you back to work and leave that place with a sad face. Wonder will baobei mis baobei. and the answer is.. yea.. Baobei did mis baobei too. Very touch..haha

Once left that place, really feel that i miss baobei alot. And i start to imagining what will happen when i go back to study.. Will our relationship maintain the same? or something will change? ( think too much. HAHAHAHAHA )

Can i really let baobei go? I know i can't force someone to love me and commit their love to me but.. can i really let my baobei go?

I want to TEST my love to her.
I want to make sure that i can really love her as much as what i haven't do to her before. I want to make sure that my love to her is true. I wan to make sure that her happiness is the most important than everything.

From 1st day to 13th day.. My heart doesn't really change. It's kind of weird. I can let go if i want to but i realise that, my love to baobei doesn't really change at all. Can baobei feel so?

I love you baobei.. ALWAYS... hope you feel sweet too when u are with me anytime anywhere. Muakz..

13th day.. Happy day

yesterday night had a sweet valentine's day. Really.. Very happy for everything baobei did to me. Although abit not creative la. But i like that shirt very much. It's enough for me. We did so many things. haha.. BAI TIAN GONG. Smoky. haha.. but not bad la.. the egg. haha.. can pray for baobei also.

Today early morning woke up. So tired. But to see you more, I didn't really sleep. On the bus, sing song to you.. But i think you was sleeping. haha.. Although it's tiring but i really glad that i can do so for baobei.. I treasure the moment now. Can follow baobei back, can celebrate valentine's day together, can accompany baobei to do many things and etc...

I wont let go baobei that easily this time.. Trust me k? I love you.. with my small and cute cute heart. haha

12th day.. I love this song...

歌手：周杰伦
歌曲：彩虹

哪里有彩虹告诉我
能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静
所有云都跑到我这里
有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药
看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走
你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

12th day.. Happy Valentine's day to my dearest baobei..

Happy valentine's day to baobei o. Very happy that i still get to see you on today. Wish to see you soon. Getting excited already. how? haa.. nervous to see you too. why? i don't know too. haha.

All i want is baobei can be happy forever. No worries in everything. Everything that you do will be very smooth. But of cz, in reality, bad things will stil happen. Just to let you know that, I will always be there for you. As long as i can see ur sms, i can listen to hp ring, you will always get me immediately.. (don't cal me when i having exam k?)

There's more feelings in my heart, and it cannot be describe by words. I hope i can let baobei feel it all. last time i can't let you feel it that how much i love you. This time, I will let baobei feel it immediately. I won't let baobei feel unsecure anymore.. Trust me k? Let time tells you the real me..

Muakz.. I love you, baobei.. ALWAYS.... once again.. HAPPY VALENTINE"S DAY....

11th day.. Surprised

Today was surprised by baobei. Something like roller coaster. haha..

At 1st, you said let everything shun qi zi ran again. I feel sad. And start to think alot. you said nope nope nope. haha. remember? Actually i just want to see you. Not to plan perfectly but see what can we do if i really go sg meet u. But.. it's quite sad when i feel that you don't really mis me that much as i do. Am i starting to guess again? haha.. don't care..

But after that, you asked me to go sg and asked me whether i mind to play 3p. I was so happy. At least you wanted to see me? Am i starting to guess again? haha..

Tomorrow is valentine's day. Wanted to buy you a present but.. i cant find a suitable one. Everything is the same everywhere. So boring lo. Hope i can get a nice and special gift to you before look for you. But it seems to be abit late. hai.. If i say i treat you eat whatever you want, will you accept? haha... Hope so..

I am here to tell you that, I love baobei.. Very very very much.. No matter what happen between you and me, i will always be there for you. You are not my everything but you are the one that i can't loss. I will never give up. Trust me k? Muakz.. once again..

I LOVE YOU, BAOBEI...

11th day.. Missing you...

Morning baobei, Don't worry about me ya. I am fine. Hope you are not worrying me lo.

Can't really slp well. 3am sleep but then 6.30am woke up. So tired. What about baobei? did u sleep well. I was so worry about you yesterday. TH say i no mood to play. coz msg you while playing. haha.. I haven't been like these wor. Why a? haha.. Normally i won't care right?I really changed. haha..Baobei can feel that i am worrying you? hope so.. really miss you. Hope to see you tomorrow ya. haha.

Baobei must always be happy k? No matter what happen, you must know how to overcome it ya. i love u always.. always..

11th day..Conclusion for yesterday

Lousy day.. What the hell? Did i step your tail? I really hope i can also protect my mummy.. but i dunno things will go these far. What should i do? Communication is the best way for human being to interact to each other.. But some people doesn't know how to interact with others. What should i do?

And. one more thing.. Who the hell are you? why must you let my baobei feel sad? You did promised me that you wont let her sad. You promised me you will take care of her as a friend. How can you do that to her? I am such a stupid to believe what you promised me. Hai...

Baobei, maybe things doesn't go these serious but please, promise me. Find a best way to solve it k? i don't wan my baobei to feel sad again and again. whenever u sad, my heart feels pain. I really hope i can be there to take care and listen to you. But now, you have to settle it yourself. Hai..

What can i do for those i loved ??? ( thinking........................ )

10th day.. Morning baobei

Today, you went back to work le. My heart aches when i just woke up.. What happen? i think is because... I miss you alot. Still feel happy about what happen yesterday. We went to watch movie. like couple.haha

I start to worry you alot. worry that you might not overcome the stresses coming to you. worry that you have no one to talk to. worry that when you need someone urgently, no one is there. worry that you didn't eat ur food regularly. worry that you will skip ur lunch or dinner.

I start to understand how to love someone. I changed really fast right? and everyone is blaming me. BUT.. who cares? i might done something wrong before that but.. it doesn't mean that i am going to do the same thing again this time. I learned alot from you. You are my old teacher. wakakakka

Since you already promise me you will take care of yourself, then i think i won't kacau you lo. I know baobei can do well alone. Because you used to be like that right? Now, got a baobei here loves you so much.. Shouldn't worry you also.. Please tell me if you feel sad or angry k? find someone to talk to ya. muakz..

I love baobei.. U're the only love, forever..

10th day. excited...

Today is a very happy day. we went out to watch movie o. watch kung fu guan lan. Quite lame actually and only some parts are nice. But after movie, we went back to our own house. haha.. it is quite weird actually.. we came from so far just to watch the movie.

After my dinner, i went to her house again. Brought her parents to have dinner at somewhere there. haha.. everything seems fine. Is like too perfect to me. haha.

After that, we chat again. talked about other many stuffs.. but this time, i didn't really ask her about it. And it really feels comfortable. Actually, i am glad that i can make her happy again.. See her smile is like... (cant describe)

Today she laugh alot. to cover her sadness? or..? not sure.. but i am sure that , she is happy today. no more tears, no more serious. just having fun. POWER.. This is what i wanted long time ago.. happy and free relationship.

baobei.. i love u. I will be there for you when u need someone to accompany you k? muakz.. just can't stop worrying you because, i don't want to see my baobei feels sad for small small matter.. Everything will be fine very soon.. Take care of yourself ya. Muakz.. love you and miss you always

( i nearly speechless because, i can't really describe how excited and happy i am.. )

9th day.. a bad morning

The 1st time i woke up, i on my laptop. Online, i saw jy. He told me that i didn't treasure you. Is that really so? means.. i am a very lousy bf? am i? feel so sad. What i did for baobei, baobei can't see? it's ok to get comment from them. because i know what i want now. i will go for it and will get you back de..

Baobei, u never leave my heart before even when we were together. My heart always do something and considering our future. I love you alot.. No one knows cause i didn't show to anyone i love you. Everytime people ask me about you, i will always say "no la.. not very very love", " mis her abit only la.. study more important". but now, i realised that when i said so, my heart stil loves you. And no one will believe me even my good friends.. what a failure..

my heart will tells everyone everything. I love you.. baobei...

9th day.. 2.17am. happy and sad mixed.

Today, i considered spend my whole day with her o.. Surprise.. I was so excited. And this time, I really didn't ask her any "that" question. It feels so comfortable. I really feel so. haha.. After mum came back from malacca, i drove to her house to see her. coz.. i miss her alot. haha..

After i reached, i ended up playing mahjong with her family immediately. But jus after some time, she walked into her room and talked on the hp. After that i realised that her face turn down. I was so worry about her. I scare that anything will happen to her. Therefore, i asked her who called. She told me is "him". i asked her what happen but she didn't really want to tell me as she wants to keep this privacy. So, the thing i can do by the time is..

let her be..

After having dinner with her, she told me she did sms "him" again and this time, she cried. What the hell is going on? I was very very very angry but my heart also feels very very very pain.. How can i bear to see my baobei cry infront of me.

Just to let u, baobei know.. I will never let you cry again le.. Do u know how pain my heart is when u cry? It is more painful than you decided to break up with me. Even after that you looks fine, but my heart still continue aching. so pain..

To make things right, i won't scold him.. I don't wish to create problem to 3 of us. I can only try to make you happy and i think.. you are happy after chatting with me right? hope so.. be happy k? everything will be fine.. although i don't really know what is happening but... i will always be there for you.. i can lend u my shoulder as my shoulder is wider, agree? haha.. take care ya. love you always o, baobei..

8th day.. Back from her house..

After rushing back to JB from malacca, i cant sleep at all. In the end, i carry my panda look, go to friends house to bai nian. Baobei was there too. We ended up go to baobei's house, ya huey's house, hock meng's house, pei li's house and julian's house. I was so happy to see her. She is like my sun, birghten me up.

After going to so many friends house, i ended up staying at her house. It seems like i am doing the same wrong thing again. haha..

Since we were hungry, we walked to opposite shop to eat nasi "tak payah". quite nice.. full with eggs. haha. On the way walking to the shop, i holded her hand to cross the road.. I was shock that she didn't really avoid it. Did she wants to want me back? or.. is jus my illusion? I was so happy too but also telling myself not to feel TOO happy about it because she didn't talk about it at all.

I tried to ask at a suitable time and this time... again.. I was sad.. She still giving me the same answer.. Trying to talk to her but also realise that, she really needs some time to give me the answer i want. Definitely, i was sad and i cried in front of her. because what i think is.. i am the one who can't do things right. I neglected my parents, my friends. and now... i goin to loss her.. What a failure. haha..

Now, i dunno i can really wait for her or not.. I can only let it be.. Set her free. And let her think about it herself. I am happy with all my friends. They really accompany me just because they know that i miss her and wish to see my baobei. I feel very xin fu.. At least i got friends. really guys.. i gotta miss u all much.

No matter what happen and what decision u do, baobei, i still love u as before.. Haven been changing since the day i started to love u. muakz..

7th day.. 4.13am. i cant sleep..

Don't know why today can't sleep. haha.. usually at this time (midnight), the one i miss most is baobei le.. After playing gg, the 1st person to sms or miss call is baobei.. But.. i don't have the right to do so now..

hehe.. don't worry..i'm not depress now.. not sad.. not desperate.. just feel that.. i really wish my baobei bcome my baobei again.. miss u SO much. hope i can hug u now. If.. If today you are my "official" baobei, i should be hugging u till sleep ba??? really hope can hug baobei, is like a guy gives a girl a warm warm hug. Full of loves.. Did anyone can imagine that? haha.. should be very very very xin fu.. i hope i can give baobei this kind of life.. i will be the one to take care of you..

suddenly feel so.. without you around me, i am not really me now. later i will see you right? very very wish to hug u. and shout out to others, i love baobei. No one can grab her away from me.. haha.. dreaming.. but i know this dream will come true one day, right baobei? hope so.. see you later lo.. panda is coming to look for you soon lo. haha..muakz.. hope now you are sleeping tightly. I love baobei lo..

7th day.. back to JB.

I reached JB at 11pm. Did trouble my cousin to fetch me back just bcoz of u. I really miss u so much.. and.. i really worry for you when you say u very "emo". That's why i can't control myself and insist to come back at 2nd day of cny.

But.. i didn't tell you that i am coming back today.. this is because i wish to give u a surprise. haha.. Maybe there's no surprise for you at all when you see me. But i really wish to see you as i am worrying you..

During cny, i miss you alot.. Negative thinking keep coming into my mind. It makes me so unhappy. My face black whole day. I think everyone did notice that. especially my papa. He didn't ask anything. even my green hair. He is the only one who didn't give any comment on it.

During cny, i called you many times. sms you many times. I am glad that i still able to do something for you. And i think you felt touched about it, right? I hope i didn't over do those "stupid" stuff. haha..

After i top up, i did call you, remember? That time we really talked alot of stuff.. And i realised that, you really did care for me. BUT.. something stops you from doing that. What is that? I don't know. Waiting for me to discover it. haha..

Wish to see you today lo. I really wish you have a very happy chinese new year. Let's leave it naturally la.. I will slowly show my patient and also my sincerity. Take care lo, my baobei.. Love u always ya...

4th day.. 3am, goin back to malacca

Today i went to cs to fetch u. Almost hug u when looked at u. haha.. and.. i am very happy that u felt touched when i walked to custom to pick u up.. i realised that i was such a stupid fellow who doesn't care for u much. Did u angry abt it before that? i think so.. How can i just leave u there? hai.. i am such a failure.. Cant do things right.. but today, by looking at ur happy and fat face,

i promise to u now..

i will always pick u up from malaysia custom if i am there. I start to worry u.. Every weekend has to walk thru those dark dark places.hai.. So baobei, u muz always be careful when u walk there k? I at KL.. cant do anything for u.. so baobei muz take care of urself o. PROMISE?

On the car, we talked alot. It makes me feel better.. i wish we can still talk to each other frankly. No secrets. and this will help us to understand each other more. haha.. love u always baobei. I will miss u alot alot during cny. U r my sun. U brighten me, make me alive. really... muakz..

c u during cny la.. take care lo.. hugX2.

3rd day.. early morning

Morning my dear... Now, i used to cal u every morning.. Just to make sure u reach there safely and also wish to hear ur voice. I dunno wat am i doin now. Am i doin the right choice? She seems to b very bz.. haha.. goin to late to work lo..

My heart stil feels pain. Pain till wanna cry but.. i cant cry d. am i trying to protect myself again? nth else stays in my world.. only her. how can she bear to let it go? i dunno.. my mind cant stop thinking. alot alot alot of possibility came thru my mind.. wat shud i suppose to do? let it b? or..? protect myself? dun care for her? NONONONO.. i cant. i want to be the guy who loves her with all my heart.. It seems like i am forcing myself to love her?? haha.. definitely no.. i will prove it.. i love u.. with all my heart.. hv a nice day lo baobei.. muakz.. mis u much..

3rd day.. midnight 2am

After having a good talk with u, i feel abit sad.. bcoz i realise that u actually dun wan to get back.. but i also feel happy that, u stil believe that i can make it. altho my feeling gets down.. but i feel that i am getting stronger. which means that i really think that i can overcome every single block to get u back to my side.

We talked alot and i know that u are at my situation too.. u are trying to protect urself, dun allow anyone to hurt u again.. it makes u wont fall in love easily again..

Now.. i wish be the one to make u trust love again. i belive i can do it.. i love u baobei... i want u to know that i stil love u.. i want u to hv confidence in me.. i want u to love me in the end of our life. let the time prove it to u..

2nd day part 3.. new tot

tonight goin to play basketbal and will meet up my ex classmates who can really comfort me. i really wish i can really let this settle and move forward.. i wan to let u c the brand new guy who loves u from the bottom of his heart. and i want to love a brand new u plus old old u. haha.. i dun wan to stress u and dun wan to ask anything d.. i wil try my best to do so.. jus wan to let u stay happily..

I think.. let u go and dun ask anything will helps me in the future to get u back. haha.. jus simply tot so. hehe.. muakz..

u're my only love, forever

2nd day part 2.. friends..

After calling her, i realise that my hp credit finished so fast. haha.. half day used up RM10. Ful day Rm20. 1month RM600.. power. haha.

I went to perling mall. Look for small black. We talked alot.. I share my feelings and he did that too. Kind of weird. Everyone has a different view abt the things happen to us. It usually will affect my view too but this time.. i tin i really settle down.. and know wat i wan to be.. ( a guy who can really take care of her)

I will try my best to let u feel it. i will never let u go.. hope we can do it this time in a right time.

And.. u said u headache.. bcoz of the invoice stuff.. i was so worry that i wan to go sg look for u d. my heart very pain when know that u headache. wish to like make sth for u to eat.. haha.. i muz learn this.. so can cook for u.. i will do anything for u to make u happy.. I really wish i can do it. muakz. muz take care ya, my baobei..

to be continue.....

2nd day.. morning breeze is fresh and nice but the heart is down..

Morning.. I cant slp well. Dunno wat happen to me. I always tot that i can really forget the sadness and move forward but i cant.. altho i am very sure i will come back for u.. but.. there's sth makes me feel so unsecure. is it bcoz i am leaving u? or..? i wish to c u now. really wish to c u now.. wish to hug u and tel u how much i love u, how much i care for u. But everything will not change from now onwards.. u wil live by urself. and me? i hv to force myself to stay calm and try to b happy infront of ppl.

Mummy actually stil think that we will get back one day.. jus the matter of time. She says she wants us to calm down when this things happen. She knows that i love u alot.. She knows alot alot.. She wants me to look forward and think positively. I feel touch.. It makes me feel that, i really will come back for u.. my feeling gets stronger and stronger. i will never give up..

JUST for u, my dearest baobei.....

1st day's feeling.. very strong

My love to you in a different way starts today. Today, i keep saying sorry.. altho we broke up, but.. i still get to hold u, hug u.. i really feel happy but also feel sorry.. i cant jus let u go.. i cried alot.. whenever i think of the coming days without you. But, i also hv a strong feeling that, i will love u til the end of my life.. really feel so..

I decided to give ourselves some space.. rethink wat should we do. I promise to give u time and will come back for u in mayb 1 year, 2 years or after i graduate. I promise. i will never leave u anymore.. this is my words... only if.. if. u find someone better than me..